To those tracking this topic and all other concerned persons: I have an announcement.
This is a post that should have been made a long time ago. Many have speculated and wondered about the identity of a certain double account. Some might say this double account was the beginning of the infamous double account craze, and thus the beginning of all our woes. (That was me being dramatic. Ha-ha.)
I barely know where to start or how to explain. I guess the first thing to say is this: I was the creator of the aforementioned double account. I was Miss J. Darkfeather. Notice how I said was. Miss J is now gone from the forums, hopefully forever. I don't intend to role-play with her ever again. The reason? Miss J has a very... dark origin.
She existed at a dark time in my life. I used her character and her stories as a way to cope with my emotions. If any of you have read the "Miss Darkfeather" topic, you will see that her journal entries exhibit a very cynical view of the world. It's essentially a commentary on humanity's faults. And the scariest part about it? I was the one who wrote that hopeless story. If one book of the Bible could sum up my mindset whilst writing the Darkfeather story, it would be Ecclesiastes. I provided no spark of hope for Miss J's character. She would forever be wallowing in darkness and deception, believing that she had chosen the right path in utterly despising the Scarlet Man and all he stood for. Miss J was a representation of the unrepentant world. If you look around, you'll see the darkness everywhere, and one day God will bring judgment on the world that has so blatantly mocked and despised Him. Thankfully we, as children of God, are not of this world. Our citizenship is in Heaven.
My original intention with the journal entries was to provide a filler between the time I made the Darkfeather account and when I posted the parts of her story on AMH. But living in the mind of a villain character is something no writer should do for a long time. Whenever posting on the forums or going in-game with Miss Darkfeather, I allowed myself to slip into her personality. As her, I said some that were not kind or loving. That was Miss J's personality, but I never should have done that. There is no place on the Aetherlight forums for a double account to spread malice. This is a Christian forum, and we are to build each other up, not tear each another down. The things Darkfeather said most certainly did not impart grace to the hearers, and I apologize to everyone who might have been on the receiving end of it.
I thought that having a mysterious double account was something fun and cool, but secrets inevitably lead to deception. I never confirmed or denied anyone's guesses of Darkfeather, awaiting the day when I could finally reveal (through role-play on AMH) and see everyone's surprise. But as time went on, I grew less proud of my accomplishments as Darkfeather and more ashamed. I wanted her to fade into the background and be forgotten. I didn't want anyone to know I was responsible for her actions and writing. I didn't want them to think any less of me because of what I did. But I can't keep hiding it any longer.
Secretive double accounts lead to guessing games, deception, and bad feelings. They tend to make the creator feel like they have power over others in withholding their true identity. They make it so the creator can write or say things that they never would have gotten away with on their first account.
That is not right. I encourage all those who have secret double accounts to come forward and reveal them as I have. Please don't fall into the same trap I did.
I'm sorry for keeping everyone in suspense for so long. I hope you guys can forgive me. I'm thankful that God delivered me from those shadows in my life and gave me the courage to reveal that I was the one behind Miss J. Darkfeather.