My dear Monsieur Unknown, you are not a background user. You can never see how God is using you anywhere until you decide to leave.
I felt as you do not that long ago, so I announced that I was considering leaving the forums. The reaction I got was unexpected, I never knew how I had touched so many people.
You've touched people too, Unknown. Your poetry makes the forums a more beautiful place. I'm not sure where we would be without our Aethermancer.
By the way, I'm not exactly a metaphysicist, but I will help you search for a cure.