here, i mainly try to spend time with God first thing in the morning before i go out to work for the day. But i sometimes wake up late, get distracted and end up not spending time with him at all and it sets the rest of my day off. So, just try and make sure he is the first thing you think in the morning and spend a proper amount of time with him that you are being honest with him. spend time with him, and he will surly be with you through out your day. and a matter of leaving the forms, that would have to be a solid commandment from God to you, not your own understanding. i thought like that too, which was why i left the forms sometime ago, then i survived for 2 weeks before i came back. this place served as a place where i could test my faith with different people from around the world, and surprisingly made friends here. i assumed that since i spent time here a lot that it was draining out my time with God and Family, but it was just a matter of self control. Timing between two places takes a lot of commitment and control that if it starts to take up to much time, taking a brake from the forms is a good idea to calm down. But that is from my point of view. i am sure you will be asking him for guidance and that you will make the right decision that you won't regret.