I need you to pray for something.
This happened a while ago, but I separated from her. We had gone to online school together for 1 year, and I always helped her with her homework. English wasn't her best subject, even though she was an American...
She never really accepted her help. She would stand up for herself and declare she's right.
I showed her all the outcomes of my essays and reports and ect. She would always say, "Oh wow! Great!" She would submit her essay a little afterwards. I finally figured it out on one essay- she was plagiarizing me.
One day, we began to write a story together. We agreed that the 4 characters would share the spotlight, although 2 were my characters and the other 2 her characters. Whenever someone had an idea, both had to agree on it.
But no. She shined full-ligh Spotlight onto her characters, and deleted any "fancy" or "correct" words to her parts. I suggested an idea, and she said, "No, because I didn't agree to it." Then she suggested something. I said no, then SHE replied, "So what? Do it my way."
It finally came down to when she asked me to edit her story. I accepted- only because every point of the story was pretty... awful.
And she deleted every fancy word I added.
I could go on, but there's one important fact I remember: she said, "I won't die because I'm special." Absurd! She told me later that she was "joking". I told her, "You're telling me this now!?" She replied, "Well, I'd thought you would know. I'm joking, like, 98% of the time."
Suddenly, I was angry. "That means the chance of you saying my art or writing is good was false is very high! I'm not sure if I can trust you anymore!"
Then she said, "I'm ALWAYS right, I'll never lie!"
At that, I knew she was arrogant.
Then she said, "My parents said if I think it's good then it IS good!"
I was a volcano erupting by now. "WHAT!? Listen, you say your plot for your story is good, and yet you don't even KNOW what a plot is! Are you trying to show-off how smart you are, how honest you are? It's not working, at ALL!"
I said one last word to her: "If you think you can hurt someone that much, you're right. Because you did." And at that, I deleted her.
She back stabbed me. She betrayed me. She declared I was wrong and she was wrong. She rejected my help. She was joking most of the time.
She asked me to draw a cover for her book, then said later she already asked someone else once I had finished it.
She thanked me for her editing, then asked her sister to do it.
It's okay to cry if you're hurt.
I had heard that so many times, and yet I didn't.
I kept it all inside me, all that hurt welled into my heart.
To this day, I wished I had cried.
But now, I can't cry anymore.
How can someone hurt someone else so much? It's so unfair!
Now, I can only turn to one thing: God.
I ask you guys to pray for me, and my friend. Take all this hurt out of me... all this sadness, anger, pain.
And I will thank you.