I really do not care what you think of me, my interests, or my relationship with God. However, I might as well give this parting shot if this is really to be your last post.
Stop listening to your pride and thinking it is God. Stop letting your spiritual gift for witness be warped and twisted into a tool of Satan. Stop judging unless you want to be judged by the same standard, for you will find you do not measure up.
I will never be like you, and nobody on this forum ever will be like you. You have given us a wonderful example of how Christians are not to be. In fact, I'm starting to think you were brought to this forum by God to teach us how to deal with hypocritical bullies. Throughout your time here, you have served as a warning, a warning not to be wise in our own eyes and too proud to accept correction. Thank you, Miss E, for showing us the ugliness of hypocrisy.
I won't recommend any book or website, only the Beatitudes of the Lord you serve and the book of Proverbs. May God give you a wisdom not your own.
I leave you with a warning, a warning you probably will not receive.
Pride goes before destruction, a haughty spirit before a fall
I do not claim the gift of prophecy, only common sense. For your pride, you will be cast down. Perhaps this experience on the forums will be it. Perhaps there will be another, much more painful correction. Know this, Miss E.
because the Lord disciplines the one he loves, and he chastens everyone he accepts as his son.”
You are God's child, and He will not give up on you. Because He loves you, He will cleanse you of your pride. It may be painful, but it will be necessary and you will be a kinder, humbler person because of it.