Ugh, I hate those types of online spaces. Definitely praying for your friends.
I will be praying for you, but if you need help, friend, please find an adult you can trust to talk about this. The amount of anxiety and depression you’ve been describing sounds worse than even I have had to experience.
Get someone you can trust to get the pressure off of you. Because that kind of anxiety and depression you are describing is not your fault. People should not shame for you for it, and you need to get relief for whatever crushing pressure you’re under, either internal or external. Please do not suffer this out alone.
It took me years of suffering to solve things on my own without help and it would have taken far less time if I had asked for help sooner. You can do this.