You're welcome all the same
It was difficult though. I thought you had moved on from the forums for life, that you grew up and away from us. That the forums were just too time-draining and emotionally stressful to continue being on them.
For weeks, I planned on re-making your place in the forum Hall of Remembrance. I thought about what I should say, or if I should ask someone else to make it. Because, honestly, I was still hurt by all those things you said about me before. Your ranting kept coming to mind every time I thought about what to say. I did miss you, but I still struggled in my thoughts about you.
I tried again and again to give up the lingering pain and hurt to God, but it kept coming back every time I wondered if you'd ever come back. I felt guilty and horrible about it. I wanted to forgive you, but the idea that you might have left the forums for life to get away from me forever crushed me. It felt too late for real reconciliation.
When you came back, though, things changed. I pulled up the forums on the computer and saw I had five notifications, and two of them were from you. I stared at the screen in shock for a full minute. I couldn't believe you were online. I couldn't believe you came back.
Talking to you after you came back helped me realize that you had changed. Meaning, you weren't miserable or obsessive anymore; you were back to your old self. I finally let it go permanently then. I'm not holding anything against you anymore. Talking to you made me realize just how much I missed you on the forums. It truly isn't the same here without you.
All to say, when I told Eerie that I didn't think you were ever coming back, I wasn't lying or over-exaggerating. It was the honest truth.
Please do! I've missed seeing you here. I've been thinking about you lately and wondering how you've been doing. So, how are you?