I see the urchin called Pine looked at me and frown. I look away, disappointment and dread filling me. I wanted to trust these people so much! But what if I couldn't? What if they double crossed me in the face of danger?
I shouldn't worry so much, maybe they'll learn to like me and then I'll know I can trust them!
I look at the urchin shaking her head and look back at me. I look away quickly and blink back tears.
Oh, they won't like me, I know it! They think I'm to suspicious and that I don't trust them. I want to! Maybe I shouldn't join their little band. If I go away they won't have to worry about me being a bad person. I'll just sneak away and they won't even notice! They'll just...go on without me.
I scoot back into the shadows and scamper away like a frightened animal. I find a nice, dark corner to curl up in and cry.
"Why should they trust me, anyway? They don't know me that well...for all they know I could be a spy ready to capture all of them and turn them over to the Empire! They'll be glad I left, and then they'll forget all about me."
I sniffed and pulled the canvas bag blanket around me closer.
"And, and when they're gone I'll go back home. No more adventure for me, I'll just feed my animals and life will go on normally. And everything will be ok...." I looked around to make sure nobody was there and then burst into tears, bawling like a baby.
"All I wanted was to make some new friends, but it looks like Emily taught me how to make enemies. No, no. She was sniff she was trying to protect me. But I'm sniff I'm not like her, I like trusting people and making friends. I don't think I could make friends with those people if I tired now though."
I continued my bawling and crying a river of tears. I'm a very soft person, and when I try to be tough it comes off the wrong way and then people don't like me.
After I'd lost my voice wailing and soaked half my canvas bag with snot and salt tears I just sat there sniffing. Suddenly I heard a soft voice quiet close to me and a hand was on my shoulder.
"Are you alright?"