My caracter has not accepted the person in how he is. He is lost in the way he is. He is alone, hurt, broken, afraid, needs help. And the closest person from helping him out, is someone who is close to being one of his lost friends (spoiler). My caracter is dark and I know this is just a role play and for fun, and I do not accept that this is real in any way possible. So, let us continue our journey.